Getting real!

"So I have been a wreck lately. Emotionally, physically, spiritually. Did I mention emotionally?"

This is how the blog post I was about to post started. It was a beautiful blog. A look into my life the last few weeks as I'm struggling to understand that I don't have to be perfect. It was a good read.

But...I connected my tablet to the wifi. Clicked on the blogger app. So excited to post this week. And under the headline of the blog post the next thing I read was "blog post empty." My hardwork, my prayed and thought over for the last week, my forty five minutes of typing and correcting, my story...GONE!

I sat and cried. I cried because I try so hard. I try so hard at mothering, at "wife-ing", at everything in general. Why can't I just have two seconds of something to be easy!?! Feeling guilty that I, of all people, should deserve life to be easy, so I prayed. "WHY? What am I supposed to learn from this God!? Was I not trying to blog and post my story so that someone else could be helped along the way?! I try so hard!"

I prayed and I cried some more.

I couldn't waste my entire day. So I gathered my feelings. Tucked them back in place. Wiped my eyes. I went to the kitchen to fix a late lunch for my kids and myself. Still all the while trying to understand. This voice kept saying tell them about me. "Just say Jesus."

Now here's what I have to say...

You, out there! Yeah! YOU! You, mom, wife, lady, even man that may be reading. You are loved. You are loved more than you can ever imagine. God looked at His creation, human. He knew we needed a Lamb. Someone perfect when we could never have the ability to reach it. A Savior. So He sent His Son. God sent His ONLY Son to this horrible, sinful Earth and gave Him as a sacrifice for our sins. Jesus suffered and died an agonizing death, rose again from the grave, and He did that all for YOU! All for ME! If it would have just been you, or just been me, He still would have come. I can find strength to face tomorrow, "Because He lives". I can find peace to face the struggles, because He lives. I can find joy in the sometimes unhappy, because He lives. Because He lives and I trust that He lives! Because He lives and I have faith He will come again! Because He lives and He loves me, oh so very much!
You can have that too! You can have that joy. Put your faith and trust in Jesus. Let Him become Lord and Savior of your life!
Then...live life. Live life emotionally, physically, and spiritually. Live life a wreck, sometimes! God didn't put you here to be perfect. He already took care of that. He didn't put you here to count down the years, months, even hours that you've wasted. But He put you here to soak in the years, months, even SECONDS you still have. However many that may be.

So Live...Because He lives!